🔵 By Seth Broomhead. Photo by lauragrafie.
The loneliness has set in again… along with extreme frustration and anxiety. It’s not just 19+ years without sex, it’s not having any non-violent physical contact… especially with a woman. I don’t know that I truly remember what that contact feels like, and yet I fall asleep every night and wake up every morning wishing someone was in my arms, pitiful, huh.
I’ll keep it PG and not go too far into detail about the sexual frustration I experience from time to time, and am at this time. It passes eventually, but has become more frequent, I’ll leave that alone now. I also crave intelligent conversation, which is rare in here, and currently not possible. I remember this quote/line from a show called Scrubs; „The worst feeling in the world is feeling all alone, in a room full of people.“ Believe me, it’s close to the worst feeling. Anyone care about the Webb telescope?
My commutation will be filed next week, then in six months I’ll know if I’ll die in this shit hole or not. I hope I’ll be able to have a life again, and get to travel/live in Europe, see the Louvre, Amsterdam, among many other things. Any suggestions on must see’s in Europe? Or must experience?
Well, I’ma go do my studies, I need to get this degree finished. I hope the world’s treating all of you well. If anyone has a topic they’d like me to write about or if you have questions for me, feel free to ask. You can write to this address in my profile. Honestly I could use some suggestions so I’m not ranting aimlessly. Stay Smilin‘! 😀