🔵 By Antoinette Yancey. Photo by lauragrafie.
What can I do to feel alive? Is it a touch, a feeling, a food I can eat, an experience, a person, sex to be had. What? What can I do? Who can I be in order to like myself? Is it a hairstyle, a tone, a groove or a shift, can I walk or stand a certain way, look in a direction and see the thing I need to have, the place I need to go.
What can I do to find that spark of inspiration? Is it a certain pen or paper, is my life interesting enough, can I glean enough from the world around me. What should I do to move forward? Is it the will of God or ancient ancestors, can I work toward it or just allow the universe to carry me forward on positive thoughts.
How do I get to deserve something?
When can I be special?