🔵 By Johnny Tijerina. Photo by lauragrafie.
First off I hope all of you have been doing good and have been blessed!!! Today I will be talking of some of lifes ups and downs. Previously I talk about being abandoned by family and friends. I am going to touch on some other issues today!!!
Now through all the hut and pain I have gone through these past 6 years I have learned to depend on god there are believers and non believers here reading so no disrespect to anyone! Now I have a son I have not seen and did not hear from in over 4 years now he is currently 12 years old I thought I would never hear from him or see him again I just had a birthday Nov. 24 I turned 46 years of age!!! well tomorrow I will get to visit with my son, grandson, grand daughter, daughter and mother also take in mind I have not seen my family in over four years I am very nervous but a special person sent me this quote “There is nothing you can’t do and overcome” and she wished me “enough strength to tackle any kind of hurdle coming my way!!!” Wow is all I can say this person sent me courage and set me up to be able to get through all I am fixing to go through it will be emotional but very exciting for me to hold my family in my arms and look into their eyes and say I love you!!!
As a kid I used to have, well I should say have, cousins that grew up without a father as I did so I tried my hardest to be there for them and do things I could not and had not done with a father figure in life!! I currently talk on the phone after some years of losing contact some time back say two months ago I have this new number on what is called my pan list it’s a list of approved numbers I can call so my cousin Jerry A. number comes up I am like wow, so I call and we start to share memories and my cousin says thank you for calling me! Great I thought, well we have kept in contact and talked about life as he also grew up without his dad he was around but did not care much about Jerry. now I took Jerry and cared and loved him as well as Joe his lil brother now that I am here in prison and we talk he has expressed lots and lots of love and support for me as well as his wife Sadie I am very thankful and blessed to have them both in my life, well Jerry has told me how grateful and thankful he is for me have taken him fishing, buying him clothes, fourth of July being independence day in the USA!!! And just doing things his pops did not do with him the time I spent with him things I showed him about life and how to do things for himself and his family when when got older the ways we should spend time and share love with out loved ones and children so in all to me he is the lil brother I never had he was and is my friend, brother and son!
When we feel lost in life as I did in my previous posting and we rely on God as I do things can chance a lot with having hope and trust and being humble!! I have been so blessed these past months I just wan to say to everyone there are people who are in the free world who are mentally incarcerated my people and loved ones don’t let yourself be that way, break free of them chains of abandonment, depression, loneliness, sadness, you are worthy of lot of things in life when you feel down reach out to another person, prayer works I am a living testimony of it I almost died of Covid-19 but prayers are heard and will free you if you trust and have the right setting in your heart!! I know I have talked about different things as I had stated to start off with in this posting I will be posting more often and maybe more photos have to ask the boss if it is ok to do so, if so you will all see how I pass my time in this Texas prison I am in and I will open up a lot more I am getting used to this and getting to be more open in my post well till the next time always know someone somewhere loves and cares about you!!!