🔵 By James Kelley. Photo by lauragrafie.
I can’t seem to really put this pen down… So as a prisoner most of the day we do absolutely nothing! The problem with doing nothing is if you do nothing and you’re bored or depressed or even happy – we eat! And when you eat prison food from commissary unless you buy tuna fish and sardines you’re gonna make a meal eat then later eat again… Next thing I know… I’m eating 9 pieces of cake a day, cake at breakfast, cake for lunch, cake for dinner! People giving it away! So I eat and eat. 5 years later… I’m 216 pounds and fat! Omg.
I’m looking at myself and I’m disgusted… And you see all these work out books and diets… And my heartfelt thanks goes out to Landin Moralaz and Tony Gilbert who I did time with. Because! they told me the diet I needed to do and the exercises! A lot of people don’t realize. You don’t need machines, you don’t need weights to tone up and slim down. If you could see the before and after… I went from 216 pounds down to 155 in a matter of 3 1/2-4 months I lost 6! pounds and all it takes is motivation, nothing special. That and work-out. Yes my work-out is a beast but I’ve been doing this work-out for years! Imagine your average 29 year old-30 year old most are obese (I was 216 pounds at age 32) I’m 5’8” and depressed… but I was told what to do, everyone knows taking less calories then you burn. So instead of eating biscuits gravy, oatmeal, eggs and sausage, I eat eggs and sausage only. Then I work out after an hour I ate.
I started small ab-workout and push-ups. The ab-workout was 15 reps of 7 exercises, half crunches, toe touches, full crunches, bicycles leg lifts, side crunches, scissor kicks. I did 15 reps on each one (that was one set) repeat 5 times. After that it’s push-ups. You don’t realize how many push-ups you can actually do until you do them. I started 5 sets of 20, so I end up working out like 30 minutes or so doing all of it. Now it’s a month in and I’m seeing results! I’m eating straight protein; beans, fruit, meats and drink milk! Protein you have to have for sure! But I’ve since increased my workout to 50 reps on the ab workouts (still 5 sets) But 50 of each and I built up the push-ups, I’m ding 1,500!! OMG!! Sets of 20 and I’m changing grips, narrow, wide, reverse, diamond, bulldogs and next thing I know I’ve shredded pounds and I’m ripped! I went from a fat average guy to looking like wolverine!
I’ve got 8 pack abs, huge chest and massive arms. No weights, no special diet. Just dedication and diet. workout hour a day and diet eat healthy! No breads, no pastas, no noodles. Since then 4 months I’ve increased to an 6 hour workout 2 ½ hour ab workout I do curls with nothing but a sheet on the Bars on the window at home you could do it on a tree with a Rope and I recently started handstand push-ups! along with decline push ups! I’ve got a 29” waistline ripped I got veins and the “V” going! I’m now 33 years old and I’m in better shape then 14 playing football. I do work out to the extreme But! I’ve 4-6 years to get as big as I can! Because when I parole out I’ll be 40 and sadly… alone… I’m still young enough to find that special someone and start a family… I want to be a dad so bad… I’ve got kids, I do! And I love them so much… But… I had no hand in raising them 🙁 I didn’t hold them, didn’t feed them, I missed everything… and the brief encounters I had with kids, not my own but dating women with kids, I’d make an awesome daddy!…
The desire to be with someone and have a family is soo strong in me… I hope that there is someone out there who will give me a chance despite my past; I’m not that kid I was when I got locked up. But I’m sinking in a see of despair and howling for help… will human kind save me or let me die inside… my heart is broken, bleeding and I’m cold and alone, hurting for someone to just say I care… I work out a lot and I’m big and strong… But I can’t save myself ,I’m on the deep end of the river drowning in a river of despair, is anybody out there? Can you hear my call? Does anyone even care at all??