🔵 By James Kelley. Photo by lauragrafie.
Imagine, if you will, you’re given a choice… Your daughter or your son? Imagine having to choose who you want in your life… And who you lose… Now at the time I didn’t realize that and my choice… But my ex, Jennifer, made it for me… The basic “Hell hath no fury like a woman scorned!” She basically gave me the choice: “Me and your son or her and your daughter.”
And I realize now that giving me that choice, I’d still choose us I did, because for you to ever force me to decide lose my son… Is a horrid act no one should force on anyone! To gain my daughter but lose my son… That’s a choice no parent should have to make. There are multiple reasons I won’t get back with my ex wife, this is the main one now, that tore a rift between us… and the cold shoulder she gives. I could never bring myself to going back to my past… in picking my daughter and my ex girlfriend over my son and ex wife. I lost it all… my future I thought I had… now I’m lost and broken… picking and choosing and losing it all… I’m used to losing by now. First my kids, then my freedom, then my mom, then my son, then my grandpa, now my ex… I don’t wan to choose anymore. I don’t want to lose anymore, please someone pick for me… 🙁 Better yet, someone please pick me… I’ll do my best.
For now, I’m sinking forever, sinking and I’m thinking: is this it? Is this my life…? Lost and broken, I close my eyes and drown… The final thought on my mind will be… Why not me? I could love and be loved, I could be a good father if the world gave me a chance …